"I will heal their backsliding, I will love them freely..."
Hosea 14:4
Hosea 14:4
backsliding: turning away
I will love: to have affection for like a friend
freely: spontaneously, willingly
I will love: to have affection for like a friend
freely: spontaneously, willingly
I have been mulling this verse over and meditating on it all week and frankly don't like where that has brought me:)
If I have backslidden (and I most certainly have) then it means that I have turned away from my Lord. But it is more than just turning away because in this world nothing is static. I am always moving towards or away from one thing to the next.
Here are the "things" that I have turned away toward:
pride - I know the best way
judging - At least I'm not like that!
comparison - I'm so much more organized, better, neater, etc
blame - If he were home sooner, if he helped out more
selfishness - I want to do my own thing
anger - Why do I have to put up with this
despair - nothing will ever change or get better
frustration - I just cleaned that!
coveteousness - I want a nicer/bigger/newer house
jealousy - It's not fair that I don't live close to family for help
discontent - My life will be better with this purchase
Oh God, Forgive me.
"I will HEAL your backsliding"
I come to the end of myself for there is nothing of this "old woman" that I care to keep around.
You, O God, are my healer. I sit here and soak in your healing love. I feel no guilt or reproach from you in response to my backsliding because I feel your spontaneously abundant gift of love....for me.
If I have backslidden (and I most certainly have) then it means that I have turned away from my Lord. But it is more than just turning away because in this world nothing is static. I am always moving towards or away from one thing to the next.
Here are the "things" that I have turned away toward:
pride - I know the best way
judging - At least I'm not like that!
comparison - I'm so much more organized, better, neater, etc
blame - If he were home sooner, if he helped out more
selfishness - I want to do my own thing
anger - Why do I have to put up with this
despair - nothing will ever change or get better
frustration - I just cleaned that!
coveteousness - I want a nicer/bigger/newer house
jealousy - It's not fair that I don't live close to family for help
discontent - My life will be better with this purchase
Oh God, Forgive me.
"I will HEAL your backsliding"
I come to the end of myself for there is nothing of this "old woman" that I care to keep around.
You, O God, are my healer. I sit here and soak in your healing love. I feel no guilt or reproach from you in response to my backsliding because I feel your spontaneously abundant gift of love....for me.
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